I lost you and found me

I lost you,
And found me
At crossroads of uncertain
On point of agony

Droplets of darkness
Through me
Painfully
Seep
Shades of sadness
Come cover me
Silence
Stillness
Sorrow that runs deep

The ugly inside her
Was growing
Spreading with haste
(Chosen to suffer,
Chosen to wither)
How dare they call it fate?

I lost you,
And found me
Clutching the memory
Of your hand
You said:
“Smile when you see me,
I need to hold your joy,
My journey is almost over,
My time
Runs out of sand
And when you leave;
Please look back”
Suddenly;
My life left me
My world turned to empty
My soul
Slowly
Started to crack

Dear God; I asked:
Trade her for me
Her candle went
Before the glow
I thought I heard
Soft whisper in the air:
Fear not for she is with me,
Soon you will see her
At your turn; up there.
A Yes and a No,
A Yes and a No,
A Yes and a No!

I lost you
And found me
At crossroads of uncertain
On point of agony